Hils's journal

Just going to have a ramble. Nothing new there, I know.


I kind of discussed this a bit with woman_of_ earlier in the week and I'm not really 100% what I'm saying. Just trying to get my thoughts down. That's what a journal is for after all, right?

So, SPN. Now, I love the show as I'm sure you all know. flickums and I exchange e mails on an almost daily basis about it. LOL. But it's not the same show that it was. It's no secret that about half through Season 4 (around the time of Criss Angel Is A Douchebag) I was about ready to give up on it. In my mind it has kind of lost its way and the whole angels/demons plotline just wasn't doing it for me the way the demons and mosters vs the boys had in the years before.

Then something happened. Ozcon happened. More specfically Misha Collins happened.

Now, I'd always liked Castiel. I found myself missing him in the episodes he didn't appear in but it was mostly because he was new and interesting (and hot). Prior to Ozcon I had read a few Dean/Cas fics but it wasn't until reports started coming in about Misha crashing panels and outing Jared and Jensen that my interest really picked up. I watched the videos of his panel (which I never usually do because I find them quite embarassing) and I was hooked. Misha was smart, funny, totally on board with the whole fandom thing. It was awesome.

Then he got a Twitter and my brain exploded. LOL. He's completely crazy (but as I have said before it's the sort of planned out to get fandom on his side sort of crazy) and amazing. I fell and I fell hard.

It's kind of funny because I avoided the SPN fandom for years because it had a rep for being full of crazy people who viewed Jared and Jensen as God's gift to television. I'm almost embarassed to admit it but that's kind of how I feel about Misha so I kind of get it now. I'll even go one step further and say I can't wait for SPN to be over so I can see what he does next (please at least one episode of Leverage, oh please!).

So that takes me to how I'm feeling about SPN now. Obviously I still love it given how much I post about it but it's still not the same show that I fell in love with all those years back. That's ok though. I don't think what they're doing is necessarily bad. There are episodes in S4 and S5 that I absolutely love and I know Kripke is getting a lot of flack for pandering too much to the fans but I'm mostly ok with that too (although I still cringe at the convention episode). See, SPN when you get down to the grass roots of it, is about family. It's about two brothers who literally go through hell for each other. The fandom is kind of like that too. SPN has never had massively high ratings so far as I know but it has an incredibly loyal and devout fanbase and Kripke knows that. We're like the show's family and what he's doing at the moment is his way of thanking us for sticking with it and keeping the show going (I can only guess at this obviously because I don't know Kripke).

I do think S5 is going to be the last one and I'm ready for it to be over. It's been a fun five years but it definitely feels like things are winding up. I don't know how it's going to end but given the way things are progressing I'm expecting it to end the way it started. Sam and Dean against the world. That's how it should be in my mind. I don't think Castiel is going to survive the finale and I'm okay with that. This is Sam and Dean's story. It should begin and end with them.

This post hasn't actually gone the way I'd planned. It was supposed to be about how I consider myself to be a Misha fan first and an SPN fan second. I appreciate that I would never have found Misha if it hadn't been for SPN but I'm just talking in general levels of appreciation and enjoyment. However, looking back at what I've written I can't really say that I don't love the show even now with it's wacky fourth wall breaking storylines.

So, to conclude this almost entirely pointless post I love Misha. I love hanging out at mishaland. I also love Sam and Dean and Castiel and all the other characters (even Becky). I just love SPN and it's wacky fandom.

I think Kripke summed it up best.

It's not jumping the shark if you don't come back down.

Oh, and the other thing I was going to say was even though I am a Misha fan first, pictures like this still melt me and remind me why I ship J2 (in a non-tinhatty way)



My god I should not post when I'm tird. I get all analytical and even more wordy than usual. If you made it to this point you deserve some sort of medal